{"id":"01KFE0G1Z53X7SGMENG4Z0K9B8","cid":"bafkreidyj2c2b55w5ggaui64gwbc35usgs2ywwpxtrev52lbtkoo2xqrwy","type":"file","properties":{"cid":"bafkreibzgwrgjw43uhe6fg5w3wijtsmhsmkxvbquvk7bqechv3nrq3tf7i","content_type":"image/jpeg","filename":"crimepunishment00dostiala_page_0404.jpg","key":"pdf-page-1768923071937-w6b6s2rlnbq","label":"crimepunishment00dostiala_page_0404.jpg","page_number":404,"pdf_type":"born_digital","size":193356,"text":"396 CRIME AND PUNISHMENT\nListen: when I went then to the old woman's I only went to\ntry. . . . You may be sure of that!\"\n\"And you murdered her!\"\n\"But how did I murder her? Is that how men do murders?\nDo men go to commit a murder as I went then? I will tell you\nsome day how I went! Did I murder the old woman? I mur-\ndered myself, not her! I crushed myself once for all, for ever.\n. . . But it was the devil that killed that old woman, not I.\nEnough, enough, Sonia, enough! Let me be!\" he cried in a\nsudden spasm of agony, \"let me be!\"\nHe leaned his elbows on his knees and squeezed his head in\nhis hands as in a vice.\n\"What suffering!\" A wail of anguish broke from Sonia.\n\"Well, what am I to do now?\" he asked, suddenly raising his\nhead and looking at her with a face hideously distorted by\ndespair.\n\"What are you to do?\" she cried, jumping up, and her eyes\nthat had been full of tears suddenly began to shine. \"Stand up!\"\n(She seized him by the shoulder, he got up, looking at her\nalmost bewildered.) \"Go at once, this very minute, stand at\nthe cross-roads, bow down, first kiss the earth which you have\ndefiled and then bow down to all the world and say to all men\naloud, 'I am a murderer!' Then God will send you life again.\nWill you go, will you go?\" she asked him, trembling all over,\nsnatching his two hands, squeezing them tight in hers and gaz-\ning at him with eyes full of fire.\nHe was amazed at her sudden ecstasy.\n\"You mean Siberia, Sonia? I must give myself up?\" he asked\ngloomily.\n\"Suffer and expiate your sin by it, that's what you must do.\"\n\"No! I am not going to them, Sonia!\"\n\"But how will you go on living? What will you live for?\"\ncried Sonia, \"how is it possible now? Why, how can you talk to\nyour mother? (Oh, what will become of them now!) But what\nam I saying? You have abandoned your mother and your sister\nalready. He has abandoned them already! Oh God!\" she cried,\n\"why, he knows it all himself. How, how can he live by him-\nself! What will become of you now?\"\n\"Don't be a child, Sonia,\" he said softly. \"What wrong have\nI done them? Why should I go to them? What should I say","text_extracted_at":"2026-01-20T15:31:11.937Z","text_extracted_by":"pdf-processor","text_has_content":true,"text_source":"born_digital","uploaded":true},"relationships":[{"peer":"01KFCZZ05FKVDDMJJV3YE9Q4WH","peer_label":"crimepunishment00dostiala.pdf","peer_type":"file","predicate":"derived_from"},{"peer":"01KESYJX0Z6XE0HWTS5N3SDG0B","peer_label":"The Classics","peer_type":"collection","predicate":"collection"}],"ver":2,"created_at":"2026-01-20T15:31:12.698Z","ts":"2026-01-20T15:31:14.182Z","edited_by":{"method":"manual","user_id":"01KFCZWTBNJH4WFMS8354919KY"}}