{"id":"01KFE0G1X9Z9C6QQ9GTSD25APR","cid":"bafkreihslr55qy6k7imxyyzivyty4skbby5uwvwemmsr4rbppkyoyvk2qm","type":"file","properties":{"cid":"bafkreiffcdydnytrmumxokcbvo5wonwsnodglfyiwvmkdidfojon3fe7by","content_type":"image/jpeg","filename":"crimepunishment00dostiala_page_0457.jpg","key":"pdf-page-1768923071971-1pjmdya7ohq","label":"crimepunishment00dostiala_page_0457.jpg","page_number":457,"pdf_type":"born_digital","size":216052,"text":"CRIME AND PUNISHMENT 449\nbeing utterly annihilated and prostrate before her purity. I flat-\ntered her shamelessly, and as soon as I succeeded in getting a\npressure of the hand, even a glance from her, I would reproach\nmyself for having snatched it by force, and would declare that\nshe had resisted, so that I could never have gained anything but\nfor my being so unprincipled. I maintained that she was so\ninnocent that she could not foresee my treachery, and yielded to\nme unconsciously, unawares, and so on. In fact, I triumphed,\nwhile mylady remained firmly convinced that she was innocent^\nchaste, and faithful to all her duties and obligations and had\nsuccumbed quite by accident. And how angry she was with m«\nwhen I explained to her at last that it was my sincere convic-\ntion that she was just as eager as I. Poor Marfa Petrovna was\nawfully weak on the side of flattery, and if I had only cared to,\nI might have had all her property settled on me during her life-\ntime. (Iam drinking an awful lot of wine now and talking\ntoo much. ) I hope you won't be angry if I mention now that I\nwas beginning to produce the same effect on Avdotya Roman-\novna. But I was stupid and impatient and spoiled it all. Avdotya\nRomanovna had several times — and one time in particular —\nbeen greatly displeased by the expression of my eyes, would you\nbeheve it? There was sometimes a light in them which fright-\nened her and grew stronger and stronger and more unguarded till\nit was hateful to her. No need to go into detail, but we parted.\nThere I acted stupidly again. I fell to jeering in the coarsest\nway at all such propaganda and efforts to convert me; Parasha\ncame on to the scene again, and not she alone; in fact there\nwas a tremendous to-do. Ah, Rodion Romanovitch, if you could\nonly see how your sister's eyes can flash sometimes! Never mind\nmy being drunk at this moment and having had a whole glass\nof wine. I am speaking the truth. I assure you that this glance\nhas haunted my dreams; the very rustle of her dress was more\nthan I could stand at last. I really began to think that I might\nbecome epileptic. I could never have believed that I could be\nmoved to such a frenzy. It was essential, indeed, to be recon-\nciled, but by then it was impossible. And imagine what I did\nthen! To what a pitch of stupidity a man can be brought by\nfrenzy! Never undertake anything in a frenzy, Rodion Roman-\novitch. Ireflected that Avdotya Romanovna was after all a\nbeggar (ach, excuse me, that's not the word . . . but does it","text_extracted_at":"2026-01-20T15:31:11.971Z","text_extracted_by":"pdf-processor","text_has_content":true,"text_source":"born_digital","uploaded":true},"relationships":[{"peer":"01KFCZZ05FKVDDMJJV3YE9Q4WH","peer_label":"crimepunishment00dostiala.pdf","peer_type":"file","predicate":"derived_from"},{"peer":"01KESYJX0Z6XE0HWTS5N3SDG0B","peer_label":"The Classics","peer_type":"collection","predicate":"collection"}],"ver":2,"created_at":"2026-01-20T15:31:12.526Z","ts":"2026-01-20T15:31:13.803Z","edited_by":{"method":"manual","user_id":"01KFCZWTBNJH4WFMS8354919KY"}}