{"id":"01KFE0DX4F3DAERT0JGADE2H4R","cid":"bafkreibck7cf2x4fpacb7jcl7zwpxv2krp4p5bt2jzyjrwuwe3nphbjh5q","type":"file","properties":{"cid":"bafkreif3c2z23dvkbp7nd6f4hflohx6wupsktagyvs4t6vyocdex2oemdq","content_type":"image/jpeg","filename":"crimepunishment00dostiala_page_0269.jpg","key":"pdf-page-1768923001322-ndyfzb6kud","label":"crimepunishment00dostiala_page_0269.jpg","page_number":269,"pdf_type":"born_digital","size":216479,"text":"CRIME AND PUNISHMENT 261\nset up to him after his death, and so all is permitted. No, such\npeople it seems are not of flesh but of bronze!\"\nOne sudden irrelevant idea almost made him laugh. Napoleon,\nthe pyramids, Waterloo, and a wretched skinny old woman, a\npawnbroker with a red trunk under her bed — it's a nice hash\nfor Porfiry Petrovitch to digest! How can they digest it! It's\ntoo inartistic. \"A Napoleon creep under an old woman's bed!\nUgh, how loathsome!\"\nAt moments he felt he was raving. He sank into a state of\nfeverish excitement. \"The old woman is of no consequence,\"\nhe thought, hotly and incoherently. \"The old woman was a\nmistake perhaps, but she is not what matters! The old woman\nwas only an illness. ... I was in a hurry to overstep. ... I\ndidn't kill a human being, but a principle! I killed the principle,\nbut I didn't overstep, I stopped on this side. ... I was only\ncapable of killing. And it seems I wasn't even capable of that\n. . . Principle? Why was that fool Razumihin abusing the so-\ncialists? They are industrious, commercial people; 'the happiness\nof air is their case. No, life is only given to me once and I shall\nnever have it again; I don't want to wait for 'the happiness of\nall.' I want to live myself, or else better not live at all. I simply\ncouldn't pass by my mother starving, keeping my trouble in my\npocket while I waited for the 'happiness of all.' I am putting my\nlittle brick into the happiness of all and so my heart is at peace.\nHa-ha! Why have you let me slip? I only live once, I too want,\n. . . Ech, I am an aesthetic louse and nothing more,\" he added\nsuddenly, laughing like a madman. \"Yes, I am certainly a louse,\"\nhe went on, clutching at the idea, gloating over it and playing\nwith it with vindictive pleasure. \"In the first place, because I\ncan reason that I am one, and secondly, because for a month past\nI have been troubling benevolent Providence, calling it to wit-\nness that not for my own fleshly lusts did I undertake it, but\nwith a grand and noble object — ha-ha! Thirdly, because I aimed\nat carrying it out as justly as possible, weighing, measuring and\ncalculating. Of all the lice I picked out the most useless one\nand proposed to take from her only as much as I needed for the\nfirst step, no more nor less (so the rest would have gone to a\nmonastery, according to her will, ha-ha!). And what shows\nthat I am utterly a louse,\" he added, grinding his teeth, \"is\nthat I am perhaps- viler and more loathsome than the louse I","text_extracted_at":"2026-01-20T15:30:01.322Z","text_extracted_by":"pdf-processor","text_has_content":true,"text_source":"born_digital","uploaded":true},"relationships":[{"peer":"01KFCZZ05FKVDDMJJV3YE9Q4WH","peer_label":"crimepunishment00dostiala.pdf","peer_type":"file","predicate":"derived_from"},{"peer":"01KESYJX0Z6XE0HWTS5N3SDG0B","peer_label":"The Classics","peer_type":"collection","predicate":"collection"}],"ver":2,"created_at":"2026-01-20T15:30:02.135Z","ts":"2026-01-20T15:30:03.418Z","edited_by":{"method":"manual","user_id":"01KFCZWTBNJH4WFMS8354919KY"}}