{"id":"01KFE0BT604FFBSVJ7681E3CHH","cid":"bafkreiek2ruw2pt5l5lk3a7ddm4y7iy6mg25cepcjblzbq6cpepoajefjq","type":"file","properties":{"cid":"bafkreidwq3pcixqwl7aqos6blzwgpzjk4lg5haafwfeeh5xvhtrcurywea","content_type":"image/jpeg","filename":"crimepunishment00dostiala_page_0023.jpg","key":"pdf-page-1768922932933-v8gk1jq316i","label":"crimepunishment00dostiala_page_0023.jpg","page_number":23,"pdf_type":"born_digital","size":219040,"text":"CRIME AND PUNISHMENT 15\nin a wild and remote district where I happened to be at the time;\nand she was left in such hopeless poverty that, although I have\nseen many ups and downs of all sort, I don't feel equal to de-\nscribing iteven. Her relations had all thrown her off. And she\nwas proud, too, excessively proud. . . .And then, honoured sir,\nand then, I, being at the time a widower, with a daughter of\nfourteen left me by my first wife, offered her my hand, for I\ncould not bear the sight of such suffering. You can judge the\nextremity of her calamities, that she, a woman of education and\nculture and distinguished family, should have consented to be\nmy wife. But she did! Weeping and sobbing and wringing her\nhands, she married me! For she had nowhere to turn! Do you\nunderstand, sir, do you understand what it means when you\nhave absolutely nowhere to turn? No, that you don't under-\nstand yet. . . . And for a whole year, I performed my duties\nconscientiously and faithfully, and did not touch this\" (he\ntapped the jug with his finger) , \"for I have feelings. But even\nso, I could not please her; and then I lost my place too, and\nthat through no fault of mine but through changes in the office;\nand then I did touch it! ... It will be a year and a half ago\nsoon since we found ourselves at last after many wanderings\nand numerous calamities in this magnificent capital, adorned\nwith innumerable monuments. Here too I obtained a situation.\n... I obtained it and I lost it again. Do you understand? This\ntime it was through my own fault I lost it: for my weakness had\ncome out. . . . We have now part of a room at Amalia Fyodo-\nrovna LipiJevechsel's; and what we live upon and what we pay\nour rent with, I could not say. There are a lot of people living\nthere besides ourselves. Dirt and disorder, a perfect Bedlam . . .\nhm . . . yes . . . And meanwhile my daughter by my first wife\nhas grown up; and what my daughter has had to put up with\nfrom her step-mother whilst she was growing up, I won't speak\nof. For, though Katerina Ivanovna is full of generous feelings,\nshe is a spirited lady, irritable and short-tempered. . . . Yes. But\nit's no use going over that! Sonia, as you may well fancy, has\nhad no education. I did make an effort four years ago to give her\na course of geography and universal history, but as I was not\nvery well up in those subjects myself and we had no suitable\nbooks, and what books we had . . . hm, any way we have not\n€ven those now, so all our instruction came to an end. We","text_extracted_at":"2026-01-20T15:28:52.933Z","text_extracted_by":"pdf-processor","text_has_content":true,"text_source":"born_digital","uploaded":true},"relationships":[{"peer":"01KFCZZ05FKVDDMJJV3YE9Q4WH","peer_label":"crimepunishment00dostiala.pdf","peer_type":"file","predicate":"derived_from"},{"peer":"01KESYJX0Z6XE0HWTS5N3SDG0B","peer_label":"The Classics","peer_type":"collection","predicate":"collection"}],"ver":2,"created_at":"2026-01-20T15:28:53.820Z","ts":"2026-01-20T15:28:55.141Z","edited_by":{"method":"manual","user_id":"01KFCZWTBNJH4WFMS8354919KY"}}