{"id":"01KFE0BT3BP0PPNB976D6Y19P9","cid":"bafkreibetafllvuwtsft3uk5glx5je5yppmyta5tvo7z2danagh2po73ha","type":"file","properties":{"cid":"bafkreicsoauswineqpiscnhqrvnqslgbqigyqt62egyigfkfmta2sfxjwe","content_type":"image/jpeg","filename":"crimepunishment00dostiala_page_0051.jpg","key":"pdf-page-1768922932942-hztiva42uqd","label":"crimepunishment00dostiala_page_0051.jpg","page_number":51,"pdf_type":"born_digital","size":218842,"text":"CRIME AND PUNISHMENT 43\nof Starvation. It has to be paid for, it has to be paid for, Dounia,\nthis smartness. And what if it's more than you can bear after-\nwards, ifyou regret it? The bitterness, the misery, the curses,\nthe tears hidden from all the world, for you are not a Marfa\nPetrovna. And how will your mother feel then? Even now she\nis uneasy, she is worried, but then, when she sees it all clearly?\nAnd I? Yes, indeed, what have you taken me for? I won't have\nyour sacrifice, Dounia, I won't have it, mother! It shall not be,\nso long as I am alive, it shall not, it shall not! I won't accept it!\"\nHe suddenly paused in his reflections and stood still.\n\"It shall not be? But what are you going to do to prevent it?\nYou'll forbid it? And what right have you? What can you\npromise them on your side to give you such a right? Your whole\nlife, your whole future, you will devote to them when you have\nfinished your studies and obtained a post? Yes, we have heard all\nthat before, and that's all words, but now? Now something must\nbe done, now, do you understand that? And what are you doing\nnow? You are living upon them. They borrow on their hun-\ndred roubles pension. They borrow from the Svidrigai'lovs. How\nare you going to save them from Svidrigailovs, from Afanasy\nIvanovitch Vahrushin, oh, future millionaire Zeus who would\narrange their lives for them? In another ten years? In another\nten years, mother will be blind with knitting shawls, maybe with\nweeping too. She will be worn to a shadow with fasting; and\nmy sister? Imagine for a moment what may have become of\nyour sister in ten years? What may happen to her during those\nten years? Can you fancy?\"\nSo he tortured himself, fretting himself with such questions,\nand finding a kind of enjoyment in it. And yet all these ques-\ntions were not new ones suddenly confronting him, they were\nold familiar aches. It was long since they had first begun to\ngrip and rend his heart. Long, long ago his present anguish had\nits first beginnings; it had waxed and gathered strength, it had\nmatured and concentrated, until it had taken the form of a\nfearful, frenzied and fantastic question, which tortured his\nheart and mind, clamouring insistently for an answer. Now his\nmother's letter had burst on him like a thunderclap. It was\nclear that he must not now suffer passively, worrying himself\nover unsolved questions, but that he must do something, do it at","text_extracted_at":"2026-01-20T15:28:52.942Z","text_extracted_by":"pdf-processor","text_has_content":true,"text_source":"born_digital","uploaded":true},"relationships":[{"peer":"01KFCZZ05FKVDDMJJV3YE9Q4WH","peer_label":"crimepunishment00dostiala.pdf","peer_type":"file","predicate":"derived_from"},{"peer":"01KESYJX0Z6XE0HWTS5N3SDG0B","peer_label":"The Classics","peer_type":"collection","predicate":"collection"}],"ver":2,"created_at":"2026-01-20T15:28:53.671Z","ts":"2026-01-20T15:28:54.810Z","edited_by":{"method":"manual","user_id":"01KFCZWTBNJH4WFMS8354919KY"}}